Why breaking my foot may have been a good thing.

Ok, I was going to save this post for later, but so much has been going on, since I broke my foot, I want to share it now.
Sometimes, in life, you think the worst thing that could've happened to you (in my case, breaking my foot), turns out to be the best thing that happened to you. Why? You ask? Let me explain.

I was miserable. I was working two jobs (granted I just started the second one, but I already disliked it) and they were giving me more hours at the second job. Which would've been great, but I would've had no life. I  needed a break. I have a very bad tendency to work my ass off, and then burn myself out. My foot breaking gave me a break. I don't think I'm going back to my second job either. I realized I'm ok with just one job.

Shawn and I have grown closer. You see, we were arguing a lot and not doing too well. Yea, yea, I only talk all the gushy stuff, LOL! He has to take care of me, take me places, do things for me. Be responsible. I think it helped him too. We realized our priorities and that we love each other very much. All the arguing in the world, doesn't help anything. So, we stopped arguing. Yes, we still get into little tiffs, but we've spent more time together and talked. I found out that he's the man who will be with me through everything. I love you so dang much, Shawn.

I learned a lot about myself. I learned I am so damn independent. I am bound and determined to do it myself. So, even though Shawn has to help me, when he's sleeping or not here, it's all me. The only time I asked him for help was the first time I took a shower. After that, I did it myself. I kinda had to learn how to do things on that foot all over again. It's interesting what you take for granted in life until you don't have it anymore.

I learned to save. I don't spend a lot of money, cuz I can't go anywhere. I have learned to save money cuz I'm not getting paid for a month. I learned that I don't need to spend money to be happy. Instead, I sold a few things online. Granted, I did buy some stuff on amazon.com, but some of it I needed and Shawn was definitely not going to get it for me. Hairspray's a necessity, right? ;)

I found out who my friends are. The girl who texts me every couple of days. Who comes over from MI and sends me funny cards. Who asks me to go to the movies with her, even though it's out of her way to pick me up. Who came over with her two kids (whom I love very much) and brings pizza. I don't know if she'll see thing, but I love you girl. We've been through some stuff, but we've always come out stronger. You are my best friend. The girls at work who text me, come over, bring pizza, spend hours talking to me about bullshit. I love you girls too. Thank you for taking the time out of your life to be in mine. It means the world to me. And, if you guys ever break yourselves (LOL) I'll be there for you too.

It gave me time to do things I wouldn't normally do. I am changing my life because of it. I can't tell you yet. I would like to, but I don't want to jinx it. I am so dang excited about this one though. Just wait. I hope I can tell you on facebook soon enough. :D Oh, and I am going to college soon to be a physical therapy assistant.

I'm writing more. God, I love to write. I love it a lot. I figured out what I enjoy and love. It took me so long to find myself. I haven't completely figured it out, but I am so much happier than I was a month ago.

I missed State coming into my work. Yes, I feel bad for all you girls who had to put up with that, but I am so unnerved around state. I am a ball of anxiety. LOL! I got closer to my mom. She is quite awesome, I knew that, but she saw me all the time too. She's my number one supporter. I cried and cried when I first broke my foot. She picked me up, dusted me off, and said "Hey, get your shit together." 

A month ago tomorrow, I broke my foot. Life changes so dang much in just one month. I am so lucky. I am so (dare I say it?) blessed. I found life again. Before I broke my foot, I was just floating. I was just hanging on by a thread. Now, I feel like something big is happening. And no, I can't tell you I found God, cuz that isn't it. Sorry.  

In retrospect, I felt like this was bullshit and so unfair. Now, I realize it was a great thing. I can finally say I broke a bone. LOL! It sucked. It still sucks. I can walk, but I have a limp at the moment. I hope that goes away. It still swells up a bit. It hurts, but not as much. I go to the doctor on Monday. Wish me luck!

I know this post was a gushy and maybe ridiculous, but I don't care. I can't feel sorry for myself. Thank you for reading my post. I apologize if this was eye rolling inducing.. HAHAHA Let me know what you think! :)