The things I regret.

Ok, blog post number two. There are a few things I regret at the ripe "old" age of 26. LOL. I don't know why I feel like writing them down, but maybe it'll make me feel better. I regret wasting seven years of college and not having anything to show for it. I should have a master's degree by now, but my brain cannot function with so much school at one time. Maybe by the time I'm fifty I'll have that degree. All I know, is I have racked up quite a bit of student loan debt... all for nothing...
I regret moving back from Virginia for A GUY. :/ I have always thought of myself as a mild feminist and independent. I moved to VA at the ripe age of 19. What the hell did I know about love or anything? I loved it down there and yea, I miss it all the time. I worked at a Domino's pizza and I loved it. I could walk to work from the house I was staying at and I was so proud of myself. But, of course, along the way, I met a guy. His name was Randy and he drove us down there. So, five years of bullshit later, I never did date him. He basically used me. I thought he was the greatest guy ever, but I was young and stupid and maybe a bit desperate. Because, I thought I loved him.
Which brings me to my next point. I regret spending five pointless years on a man who never wanted me. I knew it too. I just kept hoping and wishing. There were a lot of tearful days and nights. A lot of insecurities. I even told the guy I loved him. How'd that work out? Well, we never did work out. Never even dated. Yea, I was stupid too. And, thought a man made it all better.
I regret getting a credit card. At Meijer of all places! I racked that sucker up! Of course, I do not have the credit card anymore, but my do I still have the payments. Every month I pay at least $100. And, you have to pay on time or it's a $25 late fee. EEP! I could buy a used car for how much I owe on my credit card.
I also regret not saving more money when I was younger. It scares me that if something happens, I don't have sufficient funds to cover it. Trust me, I've been in those situations. Ahem... car problems. :/

But, I don't regret learning about life. I don't regret loving someone even if it was pathetic to a point. I will get those bills paid off... someday.... I miss VA, but I admit, if I wouldn't have come back, I would've never met Shawn either. I would've never became a CNA, and I would've never met the people I know now. I guess everything happens for a reason. That asshole guy showed me what I want to have in a man and how I want to be a strong woman.  I took something from every experience I've ever had. And, Shawn and I were talking tonight and he said "How can you be wasting your life when it's just a step where you want to be? Yea, it might not happen right now, but it won't be like this forever either. You have an entire lifetime."

So, goals: Become a physical therapist. I know it's a lot of school. But, I finally have figured out what I want in a career.
Save money. Save money for a car, save money for me and Shawn, save money for a down payment on a house... eventually. When I finally decide where I want to live permanently, then we'll get a house.
Pay all these debts off.
Find a hobby or two. Take more pictures. Read more. Sing more. Work out more. Just be happy.
Thanks guys for reading this. I hope you like it. :)